Updated: Jan 3
I'm caught in a conundrum. I love my sweets. Cookies, candy, soda, all of it. The problem is, apparently it's killing me slowly.
My amazing wife Tabitha, came up with a thought last night, "what if we're sensitive to flour and sugar and that's causing swelling?" That sent me on a search to find out. I knew that eating sugars and flour were causing me to gain weight. What I didn't know is that my liver is responsible for where I carry my weight. I've noticed that I carry my weight right on my belly, nowhere else. I don't have fat arms or legs, it's just my belly.
I read an article last night by a Dr., that basically said, sugar triggers fat production in your liver, causing inflammation and sends fat straight to your belly. Not just that, fatty liver is now the leading cause of liver transplant in the US. Yikes! The thing I need to think of is, can I be strong enough to give up those things that may be slowly killing me?
Think about it, how many millions of people are smokers? They all know that the cigarettes are killing them. But they're addicted. I'm addicted, same as them. I'll go through withdrawals, I'll get angry, I'll say "this is the last one" or "I'll quit tomorrow." Anybody ever heard those? Oh yeah.
When we "decide" to make a change in our lives, we get to a point where just our decision no longer holds enough power over us to keep us on that path. Sometimes we move to fear. "I'm afraid that if I don't quit, I'll get sick." Even fear can lose its power over your brain. Most of us don't have, or don't know, how we come to a decision. We have a thought about a circumstance, then we have a feeling connected to that thought. Our feelings create our actions, which leads to the results in our lives. A circumstance is neutral. It has no bearing on us. How we choose to think about a circumstance, is what creates how we feel about something.
Think about this. I'm driving down the road and someone pulls out in front of me. Now, I can choose to think negatively about this person, or I can think that maybe they're in a hurry or didn't see me, and just be okay with it. Either way I choose to think about the situation, the situation itself doesn't change. The fact is, someone turned onto the road.
I know that was a bit of a tangent, but what it boils down to, is knowing what you're thinking, and knowing that you can change your thoughts. Right now I'm thinking that's it's hard. I could instead think that it's what I'm supposed to do, how I'm supposed to be.
So what do I do about it. I'm going to lean on my wife for her incredible wisdom. She has a way of seeing things I cannot. And my small circle of great amazing friends that are there for me in all seasons of life. Prayer will be vital in being able to accomplish this. I also need a reason to do it. Not just to lose weight, I mean that'll be a good added benefit, but for me it's more so that I can be there for my wife. So she wouldn’t have to care for a 400 pound husband for the rest of her life. So that she and I will be able to travel the world and not have to buy an extra seat on the plane for my oversized tookus. This won't be easy, but with the help of the loved ones around me, I know it can be done. You can do it too.